Monday, April 14, 2003

I'm starting a new job next week and I haven't decided whether or not to continue this blog. It's been fun and a good learning experience, but I'm not sure I'm going to have time for it. For the past 7 months, I've had a great emergency nursing job in a suburban, free-standing ED. I worked straight night shift and, because of the location and time of year, most nights left me with plenty of time for reading and writing. Not bad - getting paid while I write!

However, I am also a Physician Assistant and, after a disastrous experience working with a nearby physician (and the libel laws suggest I not go into much detail about the scumbag, uh, I mean, fine fellow) and having had no success finding another job, I quit and returned to being an RN. In most states, PAs have little trouble finding work. Ohio is one of the worst practice environments for PAs in the country. Jobs are hard to find.

After a year and a half, I was fortunate to land a PA job with a progressive and busy pain management clinic. I'm going to have to work a lot harder, but I'm going to enjoy it more. Plus, it's straight Monday through Friday, 8 am to 5 pm, no nights, weekends or holidays! After twenty years of every other weekend, it's going to be nice. I'll still work a couple days a month as a PA in one of the local EDs, but mostly I'll be out of Emergency medicine.

This blog has taught me a few things. I'm a better writer than I first thought and I'm not nearly good enough to write for a living. I have found that I have a certain talent for reporting (and, indeed, spent a few years as a small-time reporter), but I'm not capable of writing fiction. My imagination just isn't that good. Increasingly, I don't think I have anything original to say.

My very first blog entry quoted Don Marquis, who wrote in the voice of another character, "Expression is the need of my soul." I think expression is the need of the soul of everyone who blogs, or writes or journals, in whatever format. Certainly the wealth of talent residing within the Salon community is impressive. There is also warmth, wit, wisdom and passion.

This isn't a swan song, however - more in the nature of contemplating-out-loud. Nor, I hasten to add, am I fishing for compliments, entreaties or farewells. I'm excited about the new job. I have a lot to learn and that may translate into new stories to tell. But the pauses between updates may be longer.
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