Hilary to Kathy, December 3, 1971 cont., Arlington, VA Dear Kathy:
Time lapse of 2 ½ hours – Shauna & Robert (her boyfriend) and Chester & Carlos came and got me – to go to a party – Chester & Carlos are sort of freaky but very nice – I went out with Chester a couple of times – he’s a good friend type – (Right now they think he’s getting hepatitis – horrors!) Anyway – it was an icky party – People were all sitting around smoking dope – I’m not too put off by that but it was a bad party so I had them bring me home. I feel better for having been SOMEWHERE!
David and Oscar both have basketball practice – UGH – until February. The first game is the 10th.
I do think about college all the time. I’m pretty sure I want to go somewhere in New England. I still like the idea of going somewhere ‘Traditional’ (bad word?) like Radcliff, Wellesley, Mount Holyoke or Smith. I am also tempted by more innovative places like Goddard & Middlebury. What I really worry about is getting in ANYWHERE good. It depends on who I compare myself to. I think being active with SCA and clubs and stuff helps on your record but I have no idea how well I’ll do on college board tests or how I rank in my class and around the country. I’m also starting to think that Literature really isn’t my interest – it sounds right – what with my family & all but I think I’d rather major in a language, probably French.
By the way I really LOVE French and I am doing very well. It’s not half the HASSLE that Spanish I was – (Remember Sra. Donahue?) it comes very easily and I enjoy it. (I’m also the teacher’s pet, to the class’s disgust!)
We have to write an article for Penman (W&L’s Literary magazine) by decree of my English teacher. I may end up writing a short story.
I hate to hear you talk about marriage & housewifedom! You said you weren’t GOING to get married, remember? I have no faith anymore! (just kidding) However, I can’t bear to think of you or me committed to a life of housewife’s drudgery! I will probably get married (You knew that all along!) but I want to have a career doing SOMETHING.
Lately I’ve been thinking about having kids. I want to – for my experience – but I myself get so depressed thinking about everything that’s wrong with the world – pollution, overpopulation, nuclear threats (wars) – the whole thing is so sordid that if I weren’t obsessed with the routing of my life I couldn’t stand to stay around. I’m not even sure if the world will last much longer than I will. How can I have kids feeling that way? – If I did it would be for MY experience because I wanted it. (repetition of previous thought!)
Maybe I will just adopt kids – I’ll have to be awfully mature though – wouldn’t you think? (Kind of a dippy passage – Lo siento mucho). I was going to go to Boston to see Chris but Christmas is so close that it’s not really worth it! Asi es la vida. Guess I’ll stop here –sorry if I’ve bored you. – WRITE SOON! Love, Hil
1971 Christmas plate 
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