Guilt
Tonight I went to my father's house for dinner. It has been 6 months since mom passed away, and I think his loneliness is beginning to sink in. A marriage of 51 years is a long time. My Mother and Father had this perfect marriage, and I know her passing must have been very difficult. My daughter was going to stay the night with him, but at the last minute decided she wanted to come home with me. He brushed it off like it was no big deal, but I could just sense his disappointment.
He walked us to the car and stood there as I backed my car out of the driveway. I looked up and saw a 75 year old man, frail and alone. So I stopped and rolled down the window, and asked if he wanted us to stay a bit longer. He said no, he was tired, felt like going to bed.
I sit here now and find myself feeling very guilty. Don't ask why, I just do.
Sorrows of the King - Henri Matisse
8:43:07 PM 
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