My Right Eye is Tired
Today is one of those days where you feel like a total failure, but you know you didn’t do anything wrong. You know the type where deep into the pit of your stomach you have a very nasty little feeling something shocking is going to happen, and it is going to rip your heart out and eat it (while you watch, and slowly as possible, too, I might add.)
You ever get those feelings? I do, all the time, so I wait, and wait, and wait, and when something happens, I panic or get really low over it. Like for example my dad is dying. But not yet, and there is no date or anything, he could live a few years, even with the tumors, so I should just relax right? He is old, old people die. Ha, my sharing this was dumb. You don't know me, and my merely mentioning his death seems like no big deal sprawled across a computer screen.
Did you ever write in a journal as a kid? I am currently reading The Diary of Anne Frank. Oddly, this is my first time reading it. The first few entries are chilling, because it's like somewhere in the back of her head, she knows what is going to happen. Ah ha!!!! I got it!!!! Maybe my morbid thoughts are a premonition because President Bush is going to end up getting all the non-religious folk killed in some sort of modern day crusade of the Republican Religious Zealot – Genocide to all Non-Christians!!! And my blog of Me, Amanda M. Brightwell, the retard born in Florida 50 years from now will be read by Elementary School students everywhere!
That is IT!!! I knew I was born to be one of those dead loser no talent artist types that get lucky and make it big, that a few people pretend to love, who didn’t do shit and never had shit, yet found some easy way out like a dove from the heavens… and then to make lots and lots of frigging money… then you wake up and notice your ass is DEAD so you can’t spend the massive cash flow or enjoy your glory so… BACK we go to square one. In a coffin, rotting, dead, WITH worms.
On this note, I am going to bed. Maybe Bush will start that Religious Cleansing War tonight.
11:11:03 PM 
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