No Deal With the Devil
This is the way it always starts, with promises of benefits and paid vacations and such. But it's really a pig with lipstick on. Yesterday the Dilbert Factory offered me a full time job. I know it's because they don't want to pay me as much. I need health insurance, and I almost decided to go for it. I wouldn't even have to go five days a week. The offer is for three, but that tips the balance and has me spending more time there than at my own business. I mulled it over and decided that this is a Faustian deal. I already can barely stand going there just two days a week. Three is liable to make me crazy. MUST BE CAREFUL. What would really happen is that my net income would be dramatically reduced -- taxes withheld, a much lower hourly rate, and benefits taken out, too -- I'd end up working there more than I want to for a lot less money, just so that I could get health insurance. When I look at the big picture, it doesn't seem like it would be that good for me. I'd just get all stressed out and make myself sick and have to USE the damned health insurance. What good is it. I'd rather muddle on down my own strange career path.
This makes me more determined than ever to get my own health insurance and get some new clients. I'm not going to work for the Devil.
Meanwhile, I put up an online dating ad... and attracted someone I like right away. Pitter patter. That was the sound of my hungry little heart getting all excited when I saw his picture. And he's only 8 years younger than I am... I'm kind of glad I had that thing with the 32-year-old because before that I didn't think it was possible for a 45-year-old woman to date younger men. I found out there are lots of younger men out there who are interested. Look out world. A 13 year difference, though, is too big a gap. This 37-year-old seems very mature and actually looks my age.
I was depressed that my ex mistreated me again, then I got mad and put up that ad. In the same way the Dilbert Factory is inspiring me to fight for my own best interests, the situation with the ex has inspired me to keep on pushing for what I need in my personal life. I am cheered up and ready to go out and get everything I want. I must be a lot stronger than I think I am. I feel like I can get it all if I try hard enough. I hope that feeling lasts.
I WILL ACCEPT NO SUBSTITUTES
I'm on my high horsie today. Charge!
10:32:48 AM 
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