Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Temporary Insanity I've finally got a grip on myself about that inappropriate crush. I'm OK now. My mind isn't consumed with it any more. (Sigh of relief) It was just a few days of (happy) temporary insanity. I didn't do anything to embarrass myself. Now if I could just unload the constant low-grade insanity of all that end-of-the-world Black Swan stuff. For now I'm distracting myself with a serious purging of my home. I am in the process of getting rid of physical shit I don't have use for. Furniture that no longer serves me well, clutter, clothing I haven't worn for years, books I never read, piles and piles of papers, magazines and files in my office, which I'm downsizing and making into a guest room. I'll still have a desk but not the full-on home office operation that I did when I was working out of the house. I'm looking forward to being able to accommodate houseguests. I've never been able to do that before in my life. It makes me feel so grown-up. This is a big project, and it'll culminate with a yard sale in a couple of weeks. With the money I make doing that, I'll get some new (used) furniture. Then I'm hoping I can change my ways and refrain from refilling all the new space with more junk! It's an eye-opening process, too. Similar to meeting one's mind in meditation. Very revealing of my weaknesses. I tend to accumulate way too much stuff, and the stuff I accumulate is really oddball. Nearly every single thing I put into a "sell at the yard sale" box makes me wonder why I ever thought I needed it in the first place. Perhaps this exercise indicates that I'm doing some growing. I've read that the urge to clean house physically usually goes hand-in-hand with simultaneous or oncoming mental and emotional purging and streamlining. Bring it on. 2:02:22 PM    comment []