Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Those green eyes... I went to the movies this weekend–my friend and I went to see "The Fantastic Four". I used to read all the comic books and so did she. We had a good time. Sunday, I stayed home and cleaned the house -- Woo Hoo! I still haven't spoken to my ex but I did send her an e-mail letting her know that I was thinking about her. I know she's hurting and when she hurts....I hurt. I'm such a sucker! I can't stay mad at her. If I were to look into her eyes, I'd be a puddle of moosh. She's always had that affect on me. Those beautiful green eyes get me every time. It's amazing how people can have that type of power. I'd look into her eyes and think " I can't wait to get her home ". I feel like I'm weakening but that just means that I'll have to keep myself busier. Work is extremely busy but even still, all I could think about today was her. I know she's working late tonight and she has already called my house twice and my cell phone twice. Uh--Oh....Do I really want to open that can of worms again?! I need to start going out...but the local bars are all straight. We had two gay bars but they closed down. I gotta find a new hang out! At least in a gay bar you can walk up to a woman and ask her to dance. Imagine trying that in a straight bar?! Hmm, I wouldn't even try! I once went to a strip joint with a male friend. We sat around the stage and the stripper went from guy to guy giving them all lap dances. Picture this in your mind....lots of guys and one lesbian....I couldn't go through with it. I got up and avoided the stripper. She later asked if there was a problem. I nervously laughed and couldn't say anything but, "No...no problem...heh heh". The men probably would've loved it....girl on girl action. I'm such a coward! Oh to be drunk and chasing other lesbians around the bar....those were the good old days! Maybe I should move to Florida....lots of action down there! LOL. --Izzy 4:59:16 PM    comment []