A Dream of Aeroplanes: 1940
A fire next time, I read. And when it came
it was sky-borne. Some had said at first
that out of it might come a cleansing;
out of the sky might fall a fire
bright and holy, prophecy fulfilled. September,
and I trimmed the ivy round the lych-gate.
It was lifting tiles clear of the joists
and my gardener was still in France.
That was about as close as the war
had come ñ censored letters, rumours,
like an invisible tide you can hear at the edge
of the world. Little to see beyond uniforms,
gas masks in boxes, gummed paper stretched
over windows. And then, that afternoon, flying west
and in and out of cloud, the planes, a geometry
of crosses. I watched and all around
the earth stood still. The organ voice
of their passing scattered rooks, rippled
the water in the rain-butt, rattled a latch.
And then we carried on, conscious only of a sniff
of autumn in the air, the planes forgotten
in an empty sky. That evening we were told
of the bombing ñ docks ablaze, the tram wires down,
parish halls as hospitals. But still it came
from the wireless voices, morning papers and
the travellersí tales at the village bar. Birds trilled;
I picked a sprig of yarrow for my hat, and rain
rushed across the lead roof of the transept.
The the Messerschmidt came. Not quite, as they say
in comics ëout of the suní: it was a dismal morning
stacked with cumulus. But we can all remember
from our kitchens, hayricks, lonely bedrooms
(I was in the vestry hanging surplices) the sound ñ
a falling cadence, like a voice that begins
in the throat but canít find words. ëDespairí,
it would have said. We heard it, all of us.
But no one saw the plane come down,
just the gout of fire that coiled and spun above
the oasthouse. Then, when they searched
the fields around, the Home Guard amateurs
(the lads who filled my pews at evensong),
they found a booted leg, bloodless, like a spare part
brought along in case of need. Little Sammy Scase
took the joystick home and his granddad scraped
the handle clean. (ëVisceraí, the vet said later
in the milking parlour). Then it rained again
and the army came to haul away the wreckage.
And no-one paid for Vincentís oasthouse.
