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Thursday, July 28, 2005 |
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In chapter 2 I pointed out the first rule of quantum physics: No reality without perception of reality. ... To this rule I add: No new reality without a new perception of reality. Fred Alan Wolf, Mind into Matter 2:12:11 PM  comment []
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Things have a past and they have a future. They come from somewhere, they go to somewhere, and you cannot see where they come from and you cannot know where they go to, but you get what Americans call a "hunch." Carl Jung, Analytical Psychology: Its Theory and Practice 2:07:39 PM comment []
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Saturday, July 23, 2005 |
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10 July If it is true that what goes on within us creates what goes on outside of us then does this mean that someone who's screwed up emotionally beyond all hope of redemption by standard means is necessarily condemned to a lifetime of nonstop fucked-upedness? or--analogy--when I was a kid, a family friend who was a graphologist told me that not only does one's handwriting reveal ones's character, but you can change your character by consciously altering your handwriting to incorporate desirable traits. So might it not be possible for concentrated work on the outside world to have an ordering, nourishing effect on the inner, using outward actions to manifest inner change?
And as the insides shift and heal, they in turn affect outward circumstance, and a continuous feedback loop is created. |
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16 June I was thinking how the physical presences of animals (us included) are like focal points, vehicles for transmitting the force of an individual life form. And when that vehicle perishes the connection breaks. The vehicle of our connection has died but the force it conveyed remains. So we grieve for our lost connection, for our friend is always there.  17 June I try to read Keats's Endymion but I can't keep my lids apart. The page blears and finally I must say goodnight. I'm beginning to see how it is with people--how they see reality in general is how they see you, so no amount of dancing will change their base perceptions. You can only be who you are are fully as possible. And in turn try to see others as they really are, not as you need them to be. Isn't it wonderful when you unravel this stuff at last? Even stuff this pedestrian? 7:14:37 PM comment []
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First batch 9 June If you can't think of anything to commit to paper, then you aren't ready to receive it. Prepare the ground for your receiving by wrestling with old drafts or false starts from the past. In this way you generate a feeble momentum that can propel you toward the aha you seek. Regarding the great drain on creative energies and consequent shortening of artistic life by obsessive dwelling on pain from familial slights: Often you find it all but impossible to locate a place of compassion and understanding. It is better for you for now to divorce yourself from family and protect your core. Art provides for you great hope here. Give yourself to it and it may heal you in time. Play uplifting music prior to and during your day's "danger periods" (times of day when you seem regularly vulnerable to unhealthy or negative impulses, depression, anger, etc.). It will steer you clear of indulgence and forge new and healthier pathways, overwriting old behaviors. Such setbacks are not trifles. They affect your every subsequent thought and action, throwing up barriers to the living that seeks you. Do as you have here, every day, as any writer will at his vocation. Write and write and soon and sooner the words will take over. There will always be a paragraph or two for your blog. Make that garden. Your plants miss you. They want more fellows. You have a good space here. Stay while you may. Why do you reject this blessed gift? Move the rocks away from the house and scatter them through the garden. It needs their energy. Plant trees. This is a hungry place. Do you feel it? Yes! I feel it! All the illness, grogginess, low feeling just evaporates when I so much as contemplate my right direction, right livelihood. 3:57:26 PM comment []
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