Wednesday, July 14, 2004

Glass half _____ I have a happy fantasy of myself as a really positive person; the H (who, after all, has to live with me) occasionallyl calls this self-image into question. He, lucky bastard, has been in New York since Sunday--a work trip, but one which included no small amount of shopping, dining and (best of all) superior people watching, this latter enhanced by the fact that he's there to meet with a producer who's filming a fancy movie with fancy actors and therefore has much access to the spots of hot du jour. Generally speaking, not our scene--but a great place to visit. So I'm at home, single parenting for a few days, which is no big deal, and prior to the trip (and really, prior to our vacation) I was looking forward to this disappearance by the H--I thought a break would do me, at least, good. Hawaii helped me like him again (good thing, when it's your spouse) but truthfully, I thought I would be glad to be rid of him for a bit....to make a longwinded old post shorter, I missed him. Which made me realize that he may be right about how difficult it is to please me--I'm frustrated constantly with him when he's around, but equally frustrated and lonely when he's not. I know this isn't earthshattering behavior, but it was kind of an epiphany for me, because I do live under the illusion of my own easygoing-ness. And I missed him. And that's a good thing. 8:46:01 AM     comment [] trackback []