*poke*
erm..hi. Remember me? It's been a long time....been busy. I'm sorry. It's been a Kafka-esque type of busy. Been filling out forms, constructing forms for others to fill out. I've been learned how to gather my 25 years around me like a suit of armour and squeeze every bit of authority I can out of them. I thought I needed them. I thought I needed every second of every one of those twenty five years. You need them a lot when a fair chunk of your students are older than you. Mostly I've learned that I don't need the armour. I just need to work.
It has been nothing short of magical. I have never been more exhausted in my life. I work seven days a week and I don't resent it. I would work more if I could. I have been planning lectures, marking papers, applying for ridiculous scholarships and looking into Phd programs.
I love it. Every stressful, coffee guzzling, ridiculously low paying second. I'm not being facetious. I've found something I love. The bullshit and the long hours and the diminished social life seem worth it when, like this morning, after my class wrote their final exam-several students shook my hand and said thank-you and told me that I changed the way that they look at the world.
I smiled, unable to say that they have done the same for me.
8:31:18 PM 
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