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-Bob Dylan



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Thursday, June 23, 2005
 

girls who play stuff, and the girl who loves them.

Almost every girl I know plays piano, to one degree of excellence or another. They all seem to know how to sing as well, but the piano playing is a more common thread. I know men that play as well, of course, but it always seems like the boys just want to play guitar. Some of them are brilliant with the strings and frets; others, well.....not so much. But anyhow...back to the girls.

The dedicated piano-playing diva I know best is my friend Catherine, who happens to have the voice of an angel, if angels could be anything from bluesy to operatic to poppy to jazzy in a single song. Cath sang and played at our friend Kristen's wedding, and I cried like a wuss. She has that thing -- you know the thing -- the capacity to pull music out of thin air, and make you feel like she found it in the depths of your soul (you just didn't know it was there until you heard her play it for you). Catherine also plays guitar, but my heart belongs to her and a piano, eyes closed, head back, singing her guts out.

If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

My roommates Kris and Ker are triple threats, too -- singers who play piano and guitar. I haven't had much chance to hear anything but their singing, but they have enough talent there to make up for what I've missed on instruments. They sing so beautifully, you could swear that they invented certain notes. And they do harmonies, too, which is like musical crack for me. I could listen to them all day...and probably, as we walk around, listening to mp3s blasted through tiny speakers in the living room, it could be said that I do listen to them all day. We all sing along, our voices occasionally rising above the tune flowing through the speakers, contentedly sharing songs with one another.

I’m trying to tell you something about my life
Maybe give me insight between black and white
And the best thing you’ve ever done for me
Is to help me take my life less seriously
It’s only life after all

And I won't even get into the various talents (on everything from flute to sax to violin to clarinet to accordion to ukelele to cello to trombone) of Laurell, Ashleigh, Lorelei, Marilyn, Jenn, Joline, Jaime, Melinda, Teresa, Lindsay, Heather, Jill, Kim, Michelle, Miranda, Anna, Laura, Erin, Kate, Michal, Margaret, Becca, my mom, both my grandmas (piano girls both!), my Aunt Gwen...gosh, the list goes on and on. They have all inspired me at various points with their musicality, or the general love of music that they share with me in spades.

I can sing, kind of. That's about it. I took piano lessons, but I was ousted by my teacher for a) not practicing, and b) goofing off. I didn't get very far. I also tried to teach myself flamenco guitar, but I lost myself in the difficulty of it so early on that I couldn't play a thing for you today to save my life (well, to save my life, I could bluff a little). I have pretty natural rhythm, and a strong sense of tone and pitch, but I'm no prodigy. When I'm not self-conscious, though, I can belt with the best of them. It might not be fabulous, but it's something to see.

I only get stage fright when I'm trying to be serious; otherwise, I can step into character and be anyone from an aging opera singer named Betty to a former lounge singer named Lola. I host a coffee house once a year, and people never quite know what I'm going to show up as...and actually, I generally don't either, until about an hour before I go on stage. That's when the muse strikes, and some weird invention emerges. I make up songs off the top of my head, regale the crowd with tales of a life I've never lived, and generally make at least one man in the audience blush by calling attention to him in the most awkward way (right, Theo?).

Her name was Lola, she was a showgirl
With yellow feathers in her hair and a dress cut down to there
She would merengue and do the cha-cha
And while she tried to be a star, Tony always tended bar
Across a crowded floor, they worked from 8 till 4
They were young and they had each other
Who could ask for more?

But my girls -- they have talent. For real. They have what it takes. They're inspiring. I love how much music and joy they bring to my life. And speaking of inspiring...

Lorelei (you may know her as the foxy mother of the cutest baby who ever lived) and I went tonight to a jazz concert by the (remember this name, she will be famous, I guarantee you) Laila Biali Trio. And all I can say is WOW.

There are many, many up and coming jazz musicians out there. There are many people who interpret standards like absolute pros. But the rare gal --like Laila -- is one who writes her own stuff, and makes the standards sound as fresh as though they'd been written about two minutes before she sang them. She is a seriously brilliant vocalist and pianist, and an award winner, at that (she won for best keyboardist and composer). And her co-trio members, Brandi Disterheft (a girl who plays acoustic bass -- and damn well! -- is always dear to my heart) and Sly Juhas (not only the owner of a very cool name, but a kickass drummer to boot!) are equally as talented. I was startled by the quality of what they were producing, and bopping around in my seat like a class-A nerd.

Go to her website. Buy their CD, even if jazz isn't your thing. Follow this girl wherever she may go. She has it -- and you can't miss it. The best thing about watching her perform live was watching her smile at us (the crowd) and at her fellow musicians, as we all got lost together in the music. She has one of those faces that lights up like a million candles on a big old cake. You could tell she was just happy to be sitting barefoot at the keys, singing her heart out, no matter who was listening. But we were listening...and smiling the same way.



Pack up all my care and woe,
Here I go,
Singing low,
Bye bye Blackbird,
Where somebody waits for me,
Sugar's sweet, so is he,
Bye bye
Blackbird!

No one here can love or understand me,
Oh, what hard luck stories they all hand me,
Make my bed and light the light,
I'll be home late tonight,
Blackbird bye bye.

Watching people like Laila, Brandi and Sly, not to mention my host of uber-talented girlfriends (I won't even get into the guys...I don't have that kind of time!) is something I love in a deep, deep way. I love watching people do their thing. I love watching people love what they do.

A life lived passionately is a reward in and of itself.

That's what I want.

I want to do what I do -- whether it be writing, singing, or rocking a baby to sleep -- like a jazz musician plays a song: with ferocity, with grace, and a sense of rhythm both unpredictable and instinctual. I want to write like Laila plays, and even if I never hear a round of applause, to know that someone out there gets it because I believe it and live it expecting that they will.

So...I guess I better get going on that.

It don't mean a thing, if it ain't got that swing
It don't mean a thing, all you got to do is sing
It makes no diff'rence if it's sweet or hot
Just give that rhythm ev'rything you got...
It don't mean a thing, if it ain't got that swing


11:21:43 PM    build me up, buttercup... []

i believe...

  • that bad breath should cause people a pain of some sort, so they are forced not to ignore it further.
  • that puppies and kittens are equally cute
  • that I have no personality of my own -- it is all caffeine
  • that wine gums don't adequately replace wine
  • that wind chimes belong at cottages, not apartment balconies
  • that fish can't help how they smell
  • that, just as people in glass houses should not throw stones, people who don't wear shoes should not toss around thumbtacks
  • that Robert Redford is still hot
  • that Paul Newman is still hotter
  • that cotton candy is a reasonable dinner item on a summer night
  • that anytime someone says, "the days are getting longer!", I shiver until I remember they're just talking about when the sun's out
  • that wars should be fought only with citrus fruits
  • that if you overheat the average office for two hours, the behaviour of employees will aid you in understanding why people in Florida and California are so freaking loopy
  • that David Sedaris should have noticed me by now
  • that lactose intolerant people weren't all that intolerant before they decided to sue
  • that I will never name my child something that could be mistaken for a verb (Barry=Bury; Mary=Marry; Sue=Sue; Pat=Pat)
  • that wearing clothing in the shower is not as unsettling as riding the bus naked


5:21:58 PM    build me up, buttercup... []


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